When Doubt Leads to a More Tangible Experience
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When Doubt Leads to a More Tangible Experience
Herb Montgomery | April 9, 2026
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Our reading this week is from the gospel of John:
When it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and the doors of the house where the disciples had met were locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” After he said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I send you.” When he had said this, he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”
But Thomas (who was called the Twin), one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord.” But he said to them, “Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe.”
A week later his disciples were again in the house, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were shut, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe.” Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.”
Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life in his name. (John 20:19-31)
The post resurrection narratives in the Gospel of John are some of the most interesting in the four gospels. Let’s jump right in. In John 20, the risen Jesus appears to his disciples behind locked doors. This is a little group gripped by fear. They’ve just watched their teacher being crucified on a Roman cross. We find them now in the shadow of the empire and its violence. Into that space, Jesus appears and speaks peace, not as passive comfort but as a declaration that the forces they are afraid of have not prevailed. In John’s version of the stories, Jesus shows his wounds to them, revealing that resurrection does not erase crucifixion but overcomes and undoes it. The marks of injustice remain visible. And now they become reframed as a testimony against the powers that inflicted them.
In the beginning of our reading this week that we also encounter Jesus breathing on the disciples. As Jesus does so, he says, “Receive the Holy Spirit.” This act echoes the Jewish creation narratives in Genesis, where the Divine breath first imparts life to humanity. In John, however, that breath is not only for life but also for their assignment. The Spirit animates this little group that is called to embody the same peace, justice, and love that Jesus proclaims. It’s in them that Jesus’ teachings are now to live on, rooted in justice, restoration, and the healing of all in our world that is broken and harming the marginalized and vulnerable. Jesus’ breath is a commissioning: “As the Father has sent me, so I send you.” This passage harkens back to Jesus’ earlier words in John 3: the Father had not sent Jesus to condemn the world, but to heal it.
What many miss is that this scene is profoundly political. The disciples are sent back not into safety but into the world that crucified Jesus. The Spirit empowers them to confront those systems of oppression with courage and solidarity. The authority to forgive or retain sins can be understood as the responsibility to name injustice truthfully while also participating in restoration and reconciliation. Forgiveness is not a denial of harm but a pathway toward liberation from cycles of injustice and violence.
Thus, the breathing of the Spirit in John’s resurrection narrative forms a community shaped by their memory of suffering, their encounter with the Divine’s response to that suffering, and their being empowered to transform our collective human suffering. The risen Jesus sends his followers to continue his work of standing with the marginalized, challenging injustice, and embodying a peace that mere violence and strength cannot give.
Next, let’s consider the portion of our reading that is about Thomas. Those disciples named in the gospel of John honor and legitimize the communities who formed around the lives of each named apostle. This is true of Peter, Mary, and others in John’s gospel. We remember Thomas for his doubt, yet his story is far richer than a simple failure of faith. When the other disciples proclaim that they have seen the risen Jesus, Thomas refuses to accept their testimony secondhand. He insists on seeing and touching for himself, declaring that he will not believe without direct experience. Rather than rejecting Thomas, Jesus meets him in his uncertainty, and invites him to touch his wounds. This moment affirms that doubt is not the opposite of faith but often a pathway into a deeper, more embodied experience.
Thomas offers an important lesson for us: authentic faith does not require suppressing questions or ignoring evidence. In Christian movements for justice especially, people are often confronted with competing narratives, misinformation, and systems that obscure truth. Like Thomas, we are called to seek truth honestly, to question easy answers, and to resist accepting claims without examination. This kind of critical engagement strengthens, rather than weakens, our commitment.
Additionally, Jesus’ response to Thomas models a compassionate approach to those who struggle. He does not shame or exclude Thomas but meets him where he is. This informs us that we too are to create spaces where people can wrestle with uncertainty, unlearn harmful assumptions, and grow at their own pace. Transformation rarely happens through coercion; it happens through deconstruction, reconstruction, community, relationships, and believing the best about one another.
Finally, Thomas’ confession, “My Lord and my God,” emerges not despite his doubt but through it. Likewise, our work today is not fueled by blind certainty but by a hope that has faced hard questions and still chooses to believe in the possibility of a more just and compassionate world.
Let’s wrap up this week by considering the double ending of John’s gospel. The Gospel of John presents what many scholars describe as two endings, each offering a distinct theological emphasis. The first appears in our reading this week, at the close of chapter 20 (John 20:30–31). The narrative seems to reach a deliberate and satisfying conclusion at this point. After recounting the resurrection appearances of Jesus (including his encounters with Mary Magdalene, the gathered disciples, and Thomas) the author of John’s gospel steps back and addresses the listeners directly. The purpose statement at the end of chapter 20 declares that although Jesus performed many other signs not recorded in the book, these have been written “so that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name.” This statement is in keeping with the language of John’s gospel overall.
This ending functions both as a summary and as an invitation to follow this Jesus. It includes the themes of signs, belief, and life that run throughout John’s Gospel. The story of Thomas is especially significant here: moving from doubt to confession, he proclaims Jesus as “My Lord and my God.” Immediately after this, the text extends a blessing to those who have not seen and yet believe. In this way, the conclusion shifts attention from the original witnesses to future listeners, and draws them into the story’s purpose.
This ending also completes the story. The narrative arc has reached its climax. The faith that it elevates moves one to follow John’s Jesus, grounded in the testimony of contemporary followers rather than each one being an eyewitness. Following Jesus is the desired response, and the listener receives a clear call: trust in the Jesus that John’s Gospel presents and enter into the life that this Jesus offers.
The presence of a second ending in chapter 21 does not diminish this conclusion but could supplement it. Still, John 20 stands as a self-contained finale that emphasizes belief in the knowledge gained through Jesus as a gateway to life. It frames John’s version of the Jesus story as a written witness designed to inspire us, even today, to hear and follow the teachings of Jesus.
Discussion Group Questions
1. Share something that spoke to you from this week’s podcast episode with your discussion group.
2. How does the story of Thomas encourage you to be honest with your own questions concering the Jesus story? Share and discuss with your group.
3. What can you do this week, big or small, to continue setting in motion the work of shaping our world into a safe, compassionate, just home for everyone?
Thanks for checking in with us, today.
I want to say a special thank you to all of our supporters out there. And if you would like to join them in supporting Renewed Heart Ministries’ work you can do so by going to renewedheartministries.com and clicking donate.
My latest book Finding Jesus: A Fundamentalist Preacher Discovers the Socio-Political and Economic Teachings of the Gospels is available now on Amazon in paperback, Kindle and also on Audible in audio book format.
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Season 3 Episode 16: When Doubt Leads to a More Tangible Experience
John 20:19-31
Thomas offers an important lesson for us: authentic faith does not require suppressing questions or ignoring evidence. In Christian movements for justice especially, people are often confronted with competing narratives, misinformation, and systems that obscure truth. Like Thomas, we are called to seek truth honestly, to question easy answers, and to resist accepting claims without examination. This kind of critical engagement strengthens, rather than weakens, our commitment. Additionally, Jesus’ response to Thomas models a compassionate approach to those who struggle. He does not shame or exclude Thomas but meets him where he is. This informs us that we too are to create spaces where people can wrestle with uncertainty, unlearn harmful assumptions, and grow at their own pace. Transformation rarely happens through coercion; it happens through deconstruction, reconstruction, community, relationships, and believing the best about one another.
Available on all major podcast carriers and at:
Finding Jesus: A Fundamentalist Preacher Discovers the Socio-Political & Economic Teachings of the Gospels.
by Herb Montgomery
Available now on Amazon!
In Finding Jesus, author Herb Montgomery delves into the profound and often overlooked political dimensions of the gospels. Through meticulous analysis of biblical texts, historical context, and social discourse, this thought-provoking book unveils the gospels’ socio-political, economic teachings as rooted in a profound concern for justice, compassion, and the well-being of the marginalized. The book navigates the intersections between faith and societal justice, presenting a compelling argument for a more socially engaged and transformative Christianity.
Finding Jesus is not just a scholarly exploration; it is a call to action. It challenges readers to reevaluate their understanding of Christianity’s role in public life and to consider how the radical teachings of the gospels can inspire a renewed commitment to justice, equality, and compassion. This book is a must-read for those seeking a deeper understanding of the social implications of Christian faith and a blueprint for building a more just and inclusive society.
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So Send I You
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So Send I You
Herb Montgomery; April 25, 2025
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Our reading this second week of Easter is from the gospel of John:
On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” After he said this, he showed them his hands and side. The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.
Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.” And with that he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive anyone’s sins, their sins are forgiven; if you do not forgive them, they are not forgiven.”
Now Thomas (also known as Didymus), one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!”
But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”
A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.”
Thomas said to him, “My Lord and my God!”
Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”
Jesus performed many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not recorded in this book. But these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name. (John 20:19-31)
The post crucifixion/resurrection appearance stories of the Jesus tradition were very important to the early church, and they serve a purpose. The story in our reading this week is about the bestowal of the Holy Spirit on the initial group of disciples, and it carefully includes Thomas. Each time an early church leader is named in the gospels, they are named for the purpose of legitimizing their leadership. This is true whether it be James, Peter, John the beloved, Mary Magdalene, or, as in this case, Thomas.
Each gospel has its own version of these stories. In Luke’s version, the disciples don’t receive the Holy Spirit until Pentecost, while here in John’s version, the disciples receive the Holy Spirit on Resurrection Day. It’s important to let each version of the Jesus story stand on its own rather than trying to force them all to say the same thing. This allows the authors to present the points they were attempting to promote and gives us a more honest picture of the diverse, many-voiced nature of the Jesus community at that time.
Matthew’s gospel places the disciples’ commission in its last scene:
Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” (Matthew 28:18-20)
Luke’s gospel tells its version of the disciples’ commission in Luke 24 and Acts 1:
“You are witnesses of these things. I am going to send you what my Father has promised; but stay in the city until you have been clothed with power from on high.” When he had led them out to the vicinity of Bethany, he lifted up his hands and blessed them. While he was blessing them, he left them and was taken up into heaven. (Luke 24:48-51)
You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth. (Acts 1:8)
Again, in the Luke/Acts narrative story, this takes place on the day of Pentecost in the upper Room.
In John’s version, Jesus commissions the disciples earlier and closer to Jesus’ crucifixion when the disciples are locked behind doors for fear of the same elites who crucified their leader.
In John, the commissioning of the disciples includes their authority to bind and release, to forgive or not forgive. Consider what John’s gospel actually says:
Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you. . . . If you forgive anyone’s sins, their sins are forgiven; if you do not forgive them, they are not forgiven.”
This is a tremendous amount of authority that we have no other evidence of than simply the word of the very disciples who claim to have this level of authority. These disciples of Jesus would now be “Jesus” in the world, being sent just by Jesus, just as the Father had sent Jesus himself.
I love how Luke defines the purpose for which the spirit was poured out on Jesus:
“The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
and recovery of sight for the blind,
to set the oppressed free,
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.” (Luke 4:18-19)
But we are not in Luke’s gospel in this week’s reading. We are in John’s, and John’s gospel has its own take on why Jesus was sent:
“For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.” (John 3:17)
For John, Jesus’ focus was not to condemn, but to save. Yet I can’t ignore the strong words in John’s commission that if the disciples forgave anyone’s sins, they would be forgiven. And if they chose not to forgive, that person’s sins would not be forgiven.
The power of condemnation and forgiveness has both blessed people and also been a source of abuse from Christian leaders. I can’t help but think of how many times tortured souls have received peace from hearing from a church leader that where sin abounds grace does much more abound. I also can’t help but think of all those who have been hurt and think God hates them because of the way they were shunned, censored, abused, or excommunicated by the church. And I’m thinking of those who have deeply betrayed, defrauded, or abused others in the church and then stood by church leaders who prioritized oppressors and abusers rather than victims and survivors. Would that these words in John did not exist. But they do.
The reality is that those who bear Jesus’ name in the world often represent him to those around them whether they want this burden or not. Over the last four decades, so many evangelicals have embraced a politics of harm rather than one of diversity and inclusion and a politics of retribution rather than a politics of compassion in the public sphere. (I know it goes back much much further but I’ve only been cognizant of it for that long.) Today some people can’t stomach even hearing the name Jesus, and it’s not because of the Jesus in the story was so horrible. The Jesus in the story was awesome. He was all about diversity, equity, and inclusion in his time and culture. He was about justice and standing up for the marginalized, outcast, and oppressed. People recoil even at the sound of Jesus because of the meanings Christians have associated with Jesus today.
As Jesus was sent into our world, so we Christians have been sent too. But our sending hasn’t born the same fruit. Rather than standing up to the injustices of the elite and powerful in solidarity with the marginalized, we have too often allowed our religion, like others, to be coopted by those standing behind the wheels of injustice and abuse of rights. How any Christian could support the things we are witnessing transpiring every day around us here in the U.S., I will never understand. And yet, this is our reality.
This Easter season, let’s take a moment to reflect, to take some personal inventory. As the Father has sent Jesus, Jesus said, “So send I you.” What is the fruit our presence bears in our world? Is our presence life giving or death dealing? Are we part of the movement in our time toward a safer, more compassionate, just society or away from it? Are we working to ensure our world is a safe home for everyone, or just those who are like ourselves?
We may have been sent by Jesus as he was sent. But it’s up to us to make sure we are following Jesus’ example in the kind of impact we have in our world.
Discussion Group Questions
1. Share something that spoke to you from this week’s podcast episode with your discussion group.
2. What does being a source of life, justice, and healing in your own sphere of influence look like for you? Share and discuss with your group.
3. What can you do this week, big or small, to continue setting in motion the work of shaping our world into a safe, compassionate, just home for everyone?
Thanks for checking in with us, today.
I want to say a special thank you to all of our supporters out there. And if you would like to join them in supporting Renewed Heart Ministries’ work you can do so by going to renewedheartministries.com and clicking donate.
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Season 2 Episode 17: So Send I You
John 20:19-31
“The reality is that those who bear Jesus’ name in the world often represent him to those around them whether they want this burden or not. Over the last four decades so many evangelicals have embraced a politic of harm rather than one of diversity and inclusion and a politic of retribution rather than a politic of compassion in the public sphere. (I know it goes back much much further but I’ve only been cognizant of it for that long.) Today some people can’t stomach even hearing the name Jesus, and it’s not because of the Jesus in the story was so horrible. The Jesus in the story was awesome. He was all about diversity, equity, and inclusion in his time and culture. He was about justice and standing up for the marginalized, outcast, and oppressed. People recoil even at the sound of Jesus because of the meanings Christians have associated with Jesus, today. As Jesus was sent into our world, so we Christians have been sent too. But our sending hasn’t born the same fruit. Rather than standing up to the injustices of the elite and powerful in solidarity with the marginalized, we have too often allowed our religion, like others, to be coopted by those standing behind the wheels of injustice and abuse of rights. How any Christian could support the things we are witnessing transpiring every day around us here in the U.S., I will never understand. And yet, this is our reality. This Easter season, let’s take a moment to reflect, to take some personal inventory. As the Father has sent Jesus, Jesus said, “So send I you.” What is the fruit our presence bears in our world? Is our presence life giving or death dealing? Are we part of the movement in our time toward a safer, more compassionate, just society or away from it? Are we working to ensure our world is a safe home for everyone, or just those who are like ourselves? We may have been sent by Jesus as he was sent. But it’s up to us to make sure we are following Jesus’ example in the kind of impact we have in our world.”
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Finding Jesus: A Fundamentalist Preacher Discovers the Socio-Political & Economic Teachings of the Gospels.
by Herb Montgomery
Available now on Amazon!
In Finding Jesus, author Herb Montgomery delves into the profound and often overlooked political dimensions of the gospels. Through meticulous analysis of biblical texts, historical context, and social discourse, this thought-provoking book unveils the gospels’ socio-political, economic teachings as rooted in a profound concern for justice, compassion, and the well-being of the marginalized. The book navigates the intersections between faith and societal justice, presenting a compelling argument for a more socially engaged and transformative Christianity.
Finding Jesus is not just a scholarly exploration; it is a call to action. It challenges readers to reevaluate their understanding of Christianity’s role in public life and to consider how the radical teachings of the gospels can inspire a renewed commitment to justice, equality, and compassion. This book is a must-read for those seeking a deeper understanding of the social implications of Christian faith and a blueprint for building a more just and inclusive society.
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